Sorry for the delay in posting, here's a recap of the last two weeks...

From Saturday, 2/20

Tuesday evening I recieved a call that the company I'd interviewed for was not interested in hiring me. Actually, I missed the call and recieved the message over voicemail. I was more dissapointed than I thought I would be. Looking back, I must have been expecting to land the job even though the odds seemed long. Tuesday night and most of Wednesday I didn't want to talk about it with Debbie, or really think about it. I wasn't at the precipise of dispair or anything, but thought it would take a day or two to absorb and move on.

Wednesday morning I was really congested and sick, and pretty bummed. Elliana has been really constipated and somewhat conjested all week which meant she'd been waking up a lot at night, and not taking many naps during the day. Coupled with the fact that Debbie was working most days this week, it really made it difficult to get anything constructive done, or shift gears to working on the business again.

I had a major sinus headache, felt generally pretty sick adn tired, I felt out of sinc, and my future and direction seemed unclear. Not that a direction in life would have helped at that particular moment as I was too tired to take any real action. Debbie told me I looked like a pretty sad sight that morning in the shower huched over resting my head on the shower wall while the water just ran down.

By Thursday I felt much better. The sinus headache was gone, and I was no longer bumbed, but more irritated I got turned down. I knew I could have done an excellent job, and HR had given the old "we've moved on with a more qualified candidate" line when I knew full well they had been looking to fill that position for 2 years and they had 2 open spots.

My entrepreneurial spirit started to rise up, and I decided to call my potential boss up and pose the idea of working on a contract basis. My thinking was that he seemed to like me, and if it was HR pushing back then this would be a way I could get a foot in the door without having to get HR involved as much. So I called Epic and pitched the idea via voicemail.

Friday I was feeling pretty chipper again and able to start working on the business again.

This morning was rather peaceful. Elliana got up early, and Debbie and I went back to bed at 9am. For some reason I couldn't sleep. My mind was swiriling with ways I could pitch myself to the company. Finally, I jumped out of bed, and went to the library to work on a more concrete proposal to the company. After all, I still had nothing to lose.

Today has been highly productive, and it's seemed like I got a ton done, and ideas have been flying off the page.